Coming Back

Okay, it was a huge pause. The life got so busy and it's so sad that I don't post anything even though I actually kinda like it. So, I'll try to change it as I get used to my new job and get a little bit more spare time.

First of all, lots of things have happened. I went to Krasnoyarsk, I went to Kaluga, I almost broke up with my boyfriend, the guy who broke my heart when started dating with my friend, broke up with her and I was so freaking spiteful! I finally met my boyfriend’s mum and grandmother, not very happy of that actually as they are that kind of people who don't like to let anyone in their little castle that I got some pretty rude actions from them. But right now we live together in his aunt’s apartement and it’s great :)

Now I feel actually more adult. And it's scary. Why? Because now I have to thing about adults stuff like paying taxes(I've paid them for the very first time!), deciding weither to sleep or go out with friends, how to find time to clean the house, to cook dinner after a long work day, and more and more and more. Was I ready for it? Hell no! And now I'm terrified. I'm not complaining about growing up but still. Nobody told me it would be that hard and I was simply shocked and disoriented. I'm still confused anyway but I'm much better than couple months ago.

I talked to one my acquaintance the other day and he told me that I had changed a lot since our last conversation(I even don't remember when it was), he said that I became more open, positive, happy and joyful I guess. I haven't noticed that but it acually turned out to be true. A year ago I wouldn't even think that I would meet that many new people, that I would teach that many students at the same time, I wouldn't think that I would be in love, I wouldn't think that I'd get my heart broken that bad. All those things really changed something and now it's something absolutely different. And that's what scares me the most, even now I look back just one year ago and I don't recognize myself. And it all will change even more.

I don't want to scare anyone but still all these things are just something that I really actually needed to finally be able to move on. I was stuck for quite some time and it changed. Now I'm a little bit stuck again but in a different way. But it'll be alright soon. At least that's what I believe in right now. All will be alright.

Now I just want to start writing again and actually have a space to talk about thing I want to talk about. So let's move :)

P.S. Here's a photo from our first day in a new flat :) And yes, we live with TWO gigantic fat cats